Jagerbombs

i know its been sometime since i last posted anything here. but here i am! This will be a very VERY short post since i am blogging this during my supposedly "tea break"!

I was facebooking with a friend of mine from my WORMS Family (FC Club on fb) and out of randomness, decided to mod mr. Mraz's hitsong I'm yours to Jagerbombs (because of her devotion to this drink). And she posted it on Facebook as well.

Anyway, here's the Note that she posted:

josh, a friend of mine from fc (fighter's club) wrote me a song called "jagerbombs" (obviously because of my deep dying devotion to it). i thought it was brilliant since he wrote it in such a short time. it is suppose to be sung to the tunes of "i'm yours" by jason mraz. if you don't remember how the song goes, check out this link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b2fuhUamqAg&feature=related

JAGERBOMBS - by joshua lui for becky ooi.

Verse:

well...i drink drink you and you bet that i felt that,

i tried to be sober but you're so good that i melted,

i fell right to the deck and i'm trying to stand backkkkk....

Before the DJ checks out i'll be drinking to my fullest,

Nothing's gonna stop me but divine intervention,

i reckon its again my turn..to drink some or pukeee some~

Chorus:

sooo i won't hesitate no more,

no more i cannot drink

jagerboooommmbbbbssss~~~

verse:

Well open up your mind and drink like me

open up your throat and damn you're free

look into your heart and you'll find Jaaa gerrrrr booommbbsss

listen to the music people dance and drink,

We're just one Worms family,

Its our godforsaken right to be drunk drunk drunk drunk druuunnnkkk~

sooo i won't hesitate no more,

no more i cannot drink

jagerboooommmbbbbssss~~~

There's no need to complicate our time is short,

this is our drink, Jagerbommbbss!!!

I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my face in the mirror

and try not to crash my car just to make it home safer

my breath fogged up the glass

and so I drew a new face and laughed

I guess what I'm a sayin'is there ain't no better reason

to rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons

it's what we aim to do

our name is jagerbombs!!!

repeat chorus till pass out on bed..

Beckz, Jagerbomb devout

Well, till the next post!!

Love,
JL

p/s: sorry, Mr. Mraz!!! Hope you don't mind butchering your song for some lil harmless fun!

When things goes wrong...

"When things goes wrong, it will definately go wrong" - Murphy's Law

How true is that for me now. I know its been some time since i last wrote anything here. But it seems that only whenever i'm hanging out waiting for either interviews or my girl, i'd find time to think and post.

This time is no exception.

First of all, i found that all that i ever stand for is not what i really am. I used to think that music is my life. But being the jack of all trades and master of none sort of person that i am, it is working against me. I'm losing my grooves and touches. To a point where i think i've disappointed some a lot of people playing with me. I've no excuse.

And i confirmed that i am the sort of person that could not handle stresses and pressures. I tend to run away from my problems. I'd delay it rather than to face it head on. I'm a coward and i've no excuse.

And boy, am i a good procrastinator! I remembered a one of my earliest post was about procrastination and yet again i'm doing it all the time, unknowingly.

And that person-whose-name-is-not-worth-mentioning-at-all wants to take my precious away to another country! WTF?!

Then, i wanted to earn lots of money to make my girl's (and mine) life comfortable but yet again i did it with the wrong methods. I was so caught up in getting that particular job that i think i made her disappointed. I guess i just did not realise that in time.

What's timing gotta do with this? Nothing. Just that it all fell in the wrong time. Its all about timing. Bad times bad equals worst.

I was blind. i didn't see that she's been patient and considerate to me. I know it ain't about the money. Its all about the feeling of security. I've failed in the past eight and a half months i'm with her. Sure we had good times. Times when we laughed, times when we just wanted to be alone together, times when things are rough, how we held on to each other going thru that time.....i just wish this is one of those times where our love triumph over it!

Things was going so bad for me last night on the way to work in Teluk Intan with Paul that i struggled to keep my tears from free flowing.

I thought to myself, "the devil is working against me...i will NOT play his games and i will keep believing in the Lord will provide me..".

Not a minute passed, the call that i've been waiting for came. They asked me to go for that second interview! Praise the Lord! In all things bad, my Man-Jesus Christ never fails to protect me! Then i thought of a Juwita song...

"Cos only in the dark that i can seem to see..."

How many times have i sat in this roller coaster of life? I'm not afraid of dying but i yearned to live. I'm breathing now but i am dead. I am strong yet so weak.

Why is it i cannot be that someone who can protect, provide and gives security to those that i love? Why is it that i get blinded so easily? Why? Why?? Why???!!

i know it is useless to vent my anger here. I know it is useless to say anything now. Only the end can justify the mean. The damage's been done. All i can do is damage control and pray that all i wanted is within the Lord's Plan.

Someone told me that everybody's life story has been written. It is only which chapter you're in. And that i shouldn't worry too much about it. But i had to admit i couldn't stop thinking about it.

I'm way too much in love with her to let her go. She is the reason that made me wanna be a better man. I know i've screwed up, I've f!@#$%d up my life. All i want now is make things right again....with her by my side.

Dreams are for dreamers

So here i am, sitting in Starbucks. With nothing to do (yet), i've decided to post something on my blog. Oh yeah, i just saw Jason Lo in Jaya 1 about 30minutes ago.

That got me thinking. When i was a small kid, i used to think that "celebrities", people on tv, singers, actors, musician...you get my drift, used to have a hard time living out of their professions. But i was soooooo wrong. Well, that is unless you are really big in other parts of the world. But not in Malaysia.

Everyone can just walk here and there without a bother. I guess they do get to go and buy ayam percik in pasar malam without people asking them for photographs and/or autographs! LOL!!!! Thinking about that, i feel like i've cheated myself all this time! LOL!!

That is what we grownups think. But not to a kid. Even those in their early 20s still thinks that being an entertainer, performer is something to shout about. The fact is, no.

I've been performing in public for the past 3-4 years. And i can tell you, it is nothing to shout about. So what if you have a single out in the market? So what if you are a regular performing entertainer? So what if you've recorded some tracks for other artists? Its not such a big deal. We can still all sit down and chug down a cold beer at German Bier Houz without people come and disturb. LOL!! (Yes, i DO know such people...so what?! LOL!!)

But there are some cases where they think they are on the road to superstardom. They talk differently, they walk differently. WAKE UP AND SMELL THE ROSES!! You will never be as big as you hope to be. Not with just dresses and hairsprays! I'm not saying that it is not achievable in Malaysia. You can but everything comes at a price.

Can you spend the rest of your waking days just practising the same old basic techniques? Can you sleep and dream of the same old techniques? Can you forgo the freedom of hanging out with your friends at the local cinema? Can you forgo the dream of having a nice car, a smartphone (if you still don't have one...like me.)? Even if you could, without having the right connections, you'll just end up wasting your life. Its better if you just go and get yourself a REAL job...just like everyone else. Do you have the X-Factor?

I am a entertainer by night and i still need to look for a job out there. Just like the rest of you. I dream of making it in this industry and oh God, i do pray so hard. But it still boils down to the same thing. DREAMS are for DREAMERS without WORK! You have to work really hard for your dreams or you'll just end up with that. Just a dream.

Nothing is too late and nothing is impossible. Take a look at a lot of great artists. A lot of them started with nothing. But they work super-power hard to achieve their dreams and in the end, they became what they are. Some work so damn hard that they lose focus of why they are doing it in the first place. And some get so caught up in their fame that they lose what made them so good in the beginning.

To sum it all up in 6 words: DREAM, BELIEVE, WORK HARD, HUMBLE and REALISTIC!

Love,

JL

P/S: picture was "snatched" from www.johntaglieri.com LOL!!!

Sunday School People?

I've been "accepted" into a band. LOL!!! This is surprising, innit?

So this is the story. I went to loaf around Jaya One on Friday, 1st Oct, just to try to arrange interviews and to look for buddies who might be able to help me get a job or stuff. So as i was sitting around, chatting with James, Mak and my girlfriend waiting for Ah Boy to come join us.

Then dunno how we came across talking about music and bands (what else is new?). Ah Boy was asking if i am interested and available to play bass for a charity event. Immediately i jumped at the chance as i always wanted to be in a band. And he sent and email to Sara about our bios.

The next thing i knew, i'm in the band which tentatively being called "The Sunday School People". LOL!!! Well, till we get to think of a cooler name, this will be our band name.

To think that its been so many years since I've played in a band. Further more, God's band. Yes, i am really looking forward to this event. Not because Sara is gonna get us a paid gig or whatever...its because i always wanted to serve God musically.

Hopefully this is the right timing from God. I might be facing or gonna face some difficult time living out there from my comfort zone but i do believe He will take care of me. Like always.

Love,
JL

Indecision

“Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.”- Romans 8:35-37

For the past 2 weeks, i've been thinking long and hard. Literally losing a lot of sleep over it. Should i really go this time? This is how it all started.....

Just last week, i was having a great teh tarik time with me best mate, Timmy. Somehow i can't remember how we came to the topic of music, bands and joonhui. And this is what Phatboy said, "Mate, JH and i are looking forward to you playing bass with us. Come to KL. We'll figure something out. Since you've been lamenting how you are at the end of the road now."

Since that day, i've been really thinking about a change of environment. A change of my daily life. Don't get me wrong but i still love what i'm doing now. I seriously love the Crescendo Music Crew! I'm living my dream. Playing music for a living. That's what i always dreamed about. But when you, yourself who has been giving a lot of people asking you to go somewhere else for a change for the past i-don't-know-how-long the same and only reason, feeling jaded...you know it is time to move on.

I need to find myself a new set of wheels before moving down and that itself is an obstacle. Then i need to find a place to rent. And not to mention, getting a job.

Timmy has been a real mate by offering me to teach beginner guitar but that of course would mean i'm taking a 20%++ paycut from what i'm having now. But at least that is the only music related job that i'm qualified to do....i think. I'm still thinking if i should get an ordinary office job that is paying much much more (but by KL's standard...still not sufficient!)

Maybe JH's right. This is a really big leap of faith for me. Just like a fish out of its tank into another. What then, is faith? When you fervently believe in something that can't be seen, felt, touched, taste or heard. Am i prepared, mentally, physically and spiritually, for this?

I'm feeling so scared now. So afraid to move out of my comfort zone. I'm afraid that i would unwittingly sacrificed my sister's ambitions. I'm afraid that instead of gaining confidence and financially, i'm being battered by it. I'm afraid of being away from Sue Ann. Most of all...i'm afraid of failing.

JH, you're right. It pains everyone to say but Ann is really not dependent on me..in some ways. I know what i want. Confirmations and blessings. I'm not getting any younger by the minute. I can't afford to "try out" a different scenario. I don't have the luxury to test and try. I have absolutely no room to fail! The cost is too high for me.

Maybe there IS one way to solve this.

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
-Psalm 23:4

Nyappy!!!! o(≧∀≦)o

Lately, I've been feeling pretty good and satisfied about myself. Everything that happens to me now seems to have a specific purpose. I've been hearing a lot of motivating encouragements from my night job's customers about our performances and to be honest, i think i improved quite a lot vocally. I feel like I'm more stable now. Not till that "safe point" yet but i think i can still handle quite well. Thanks to Gabz!! The basic techniques you taught me is really showing its effects! I think i am ready for Lesson Two!! Not forgetting also Crescendo Music crew members for tolerating me for so long! Thanks to you guys too!!! LOL!!! God is awesomeness~!*Nyappy!!

Speaking of which, i am listening to a lot of older Antic Cafe's stuffs (when Bou was still in the band). Its really strange. I just happened to receive a Youtube message from someone who wanted a video i uploaded to be sent to him/her and i happened to find that this someone is a fan (?) of Antic Cafe. Then i think i remembered seeing this name on the Oricon charts with Hikki- chan sometime back.

So i decided to check this band out. The first video i saw was Merrymaking and there was this "blond" acting all kawaii and stuff. But to my disbelief, the "blond" is a HE!!!!( Check out the videos below and tell me you didn't make the same mistake!) Damn all this Oshare Kei is confusing me!!! Oshare Kei is a sub of Visual Kei and unlike Visual, the songs are more fun songs. And mostly talks about friends and relationships. Also, they tend to crossdress as girls sometimes...well, most of the time! ROFL!!! I think of all Oshare Kei bands, Bou is best misunderstood for being a chick/tranny/gay. But no, i don't think he is. Not according to the Cafekkos anyway!

The first AnCafe PV i saw

My current fav PV of AnCafe!

This is what they mean by fun, dance rock!

LOL!! Somehow, this band was able to capture my attention. I think its the music they play. Its not emo! Its not too heavy and technical. Just the way i would do it if i were in the band. LOL!!! Plus, its fun music! According to Teruki, the band leader, the characteristic of the band is Dance Rock..i think its a rock music that makes people wanna just dance! Just to clear the air, Oshare and Visual Kei is NOT EMO! Get the facts right, people!

But too bad, Bou had to leave the band due to some unknown reasons. I have to give a benefit of a doubt to the 2 new members of the band but i think Bou was the colour of the band. No offence to anyone but i think with Bou around, the band was more colourful. But i will be fair to the new AnCafe too....maybe not now. LOL~~

Sigh~~watching all these vids makes me wonder if i could be part of that Oshare/Visual Kei culture too.....

P/S: "Nyappy" is a word AnCafe created. Don't ask.


Nyappy!
JL