Fish in a tank

Lately, my sister is having a fascination towards having cute, small and colourful fishies. So, we've been to quite a number of pet shops and places where they sell loads of fishes. Currently, she's adapting quite good with her guppies. Why guppies, you ask? Well, first of all, its easier to take care of it and they are quite a fast breed. Plus, she likes all things that are colorful. Especially if they have blue (it's her favorite color...). Then, she is also NOTORIOUSLY known to the family as the FISH KILLER!

I remember when we were still kids, we'd go and buy some fishes home from the market just for fun. We'd keep them in a pail of water and she'll go and scoop them up just to pet them and then throw em back into the pail. She'll continue to do this every few hours. In less than a week, all the fishes would perform their "leap of death" to escape her "pettings". That is why she is so determined to prove me wrong this time! LOL!!!!!

Anyway, this time i decided to attend to her whims and went around shopping for fishes together with my friend, Winnie. We went looking high and low for the tank and the perfect fish for her and we decided against the goldfish she initially wanted and bought the guppies. She also bought a modern looking tank (which is now in storage...Winnie's lil brother gave us another bigger tank. Thanks Winson!) and we even did a DIY lamp for the water plants! Yeah, we're too cheap to buy one! LOL!!

Then a few days later, we decide to get more guppies and we went to another shop. There is this one place in Greentown Mall which, i think, is the biggest place where they sell a lot of fishes and its equipments. While my sister and my friend, Winnie, is deciding which fish to buy, i went looking around. I was fascinated with the two sharks they put on display. I really wanted to get one someday!!! Watching them swimming non-stop in circles...damn, they make me dizzy! LOL!!!

Then i saw the Arowanas. At first, i couldn't recognize the Arowanas. i remembered dissing them about being aerodynamic due to their flat upper body lines and the knife-like curve on the under body. The joke was on me. When i looked at the price tag, i nearly jumped out of my skin. A small one about the size of my palm costs RM488! Then, as i started to take notice of this type of fish, i noticed there was alot of types. Such as the Great Red Arowana, the Silver Arowana and etc.

As i was squatting like a kid in front of the Arowana's tank, i began wondering. What is it like to be them? They don't know they worth so much and they are like a prized collection to breeders and hobbyist alike. But yet they are trapped in a tank. With no where to go. Nothing to look forward to. Swimming in a tank all day and all night. Just waiting. But for what?

I suddenly felt like i am a really blessed to be me. I can play music, sing my favorite songs, dressed to my liking and just interact with whomever i fancy. God made me for a reason which i have yet to discover. I thank God that i can move freely and just be me!

That trip to the fish store made me feel better. Yes. The fishes maybe a prized collection to some but to the fishes themselves, they are clueless. This applies to us. We might feel like we are the fishes. Trapped with no where to go in this rat race.

But outside the "tank", there is a Person which cares for us. Who feeds us "foods", make sure that the "water pH" is right for us and changes our "water" regularly to avoid "dirty algae" gathering and "kills" us . This Person isn't going to sell us to some shady store to make money. But this Person is doing it out of LOVE. This Person gave His "All" just to make sure that we are "grown" into that "prized collection" mould.

This Person...is none other than our Heavenly Father.

Love,
JL

Fish is food, not friend

bored~~

Ahhh..its been sometimes since i wrote anything here. I feel like writing but i have nothing to write about!

Lately, i've been really stressed about performing at, well...let's name it "S1". It seems like what used to work at some other place, just doesn't work there. What the heyyy...?? Sigh...i guess i need to work harder than before! hahaha!!! My sis have been getting really helpful by helping us to promote our CRESCENDO MUSIC to the rest of her friends too. Appreciate that!

But work aside, i'm facing some life stresses as well. This is the last time i'm gonna bet my life on anything. I KNOW what i want..but sometimes life's a bitch! And i'm the bastard. Go figure.

Well..i really have nothing else to write now. Will be back with more "useful" blogs!! WAHAHAHAHA!!!

Bored,
JL

Recipe #2: Fried Instant Noodle

Hahaha~Welcome to my crappy edition of RECIPE!

Its been sometime since i last wrote anything here so i thought i wanna share another of my favourite recipe when i sometimes cook at home. You can also find my Recipe #1: Egg Toast on my Friendster blog.

All you need is:-

Instant noodle (a pack or 2, depending on how much you planning to feed. In my case, its always 2!)
Egg x1
Garlic X3 or 4 cloves
Cili padi (depends on how hot can you take)

Ok! Now lets go to the steps!

1. First you need to boil the instant noodle. Save the seasonings for later. Preferably get those powdered ones. i got the wrong one today. Its in paste form. FAIL!!
2. While the noodle cooks, you can prepare the garlic and the chillies. Chop them up nicely.
3. When the noodle is about to be ready, heat up the wok with oil.
4. Throw in all the early ingredients which you prepared in step 2.
5. When the garlic turns golden, throw in the eggs and scramble em (i just love scrambled eggs!)
6. When the noodles are ready, throw em in together with the seasonings. Since its already cooked, you just need to mix together with the already frying stuffs...
7. Serve while hot.

There you go! Simple, eh? But don't eat this often tho. This dish is full of MSGs. Its ok if its just once a while. You could also squeeze some lime, a dash of grounded pepper and some other things you like. You could even add in some meat before you put in the eggs.

Hahaha~~yes, i AM that bored today!! Enjoy!!

JL

Middle of the field~~

Right after practise today, my sister asked me to go to Polo Ground with her. Figuring i still need to go look for Sue Ann there, i agreed. Upon reaching there, my eyes started to look and look and look for her. Halfway thru, i spotted the same colour that she'd wear and i sprinted across the field to see if that is her. Unfortunately, it wasn't.

In the middle of the field i started looking. Really looked. There was a lot of activities going on. A lot of people doing things with their family. This got me thinking. "What the hell am i doing there? I don't belong there". I felt lost. It was like one of them MVs, where the protagonist would stand in the middle of a field or city or a group of people and the scene started turning around and around and around...looking for something. But i don't know what am i looking at.

I felt like i'm suppose to do something there but i wasn't. What was it i was supposed to do? What the hell have i been doing? I don't know.

One dead tree

I knew this day would come. It just came too soon. Too unprepared for it. I have always feared that hatred and bitterness would destroy the bridge. Its just the beginning.

I don't know how and i don't know when. Why didn't i see it? I'm starting to think that i am mad at myself. How could i be so ignorant and so blind? I was surprised to receive that call. Being informed of something like that in the middle of my weekly shows is never a good thing for me. The impact was so great that i couldn't keep on doing what i usually do. How can someone so young have such strong resentment? My crystal world has been crushed. Have i fail? Am i a failure? "Yes", came the answer.

On the way back home, i cried. There were no tears. My heart was in so much confusion and pain that i almost teared. I thought the tear well was dried up years ago when i was broken up. I told myself that i will never drop another tear of sadness. How i wish i could drop another tear. Its so hard to not feel what i really felt. The sadness was real but the smiles were fake. I can't show what i really feel there and then. Its none of their business.

But i knew i had to talk to someone. I called up someone that can relate to what happened. Hoping to able to gain understanding that he might be able to shed some light into that resentment. But i guess when a person changes, so does the resentment. It became understanding. "Don't treat a child like a child" he says. I agree that this is a humbling process for me. Perhaps i was too proud to admit that i was wrong in someways. I keep on telling excuses. Excuses that i believed were facts. Now i don't know what is real anymore.

I rather being by myself lately. I don't mind if i dun get invited to anything at all. I just don't feel like talking to anyone sometimes. Let alone, socializing. I think i'm giving up. Unconsciously, i'm giving up on the society. I used to be a dreamer. Dreaming of things to come. Things that i can do and things that i want to do. But now i'm fighting to keep up a simple task. As if those dreaming mechanism aborted ship.

I looked into a mirror. I saw a fighter. Not a fighting fighter but a defeated one. Bruised and broken. Weakened and dejected. Bloodied and laying on the ground. Those eyes...are one who has no soul in it. Those feet...can no longer stand. Its a sad, sad view.

Just like a dead tree in the middle of field, everything around is alive and well. Out of place and out of frame. That tree has given up when the last bough had broken off. Nothing short of a miracle can save that tree now. What will spring bring?

Breakie!!!!!

Lately i've been sleeping well. Crashing early, waking early! I like it!!! ahahaha~~

And another thing, i'm mighty proud of myself today! Instead of letting myself go hungry like usual, i decided to make myself some brunch at 4pm! err...not exactly brunch as per say. Does waking up from an afternoon nap requires brunch? or lunner? wahahaha....anyway, here's a photo shot of what i managed to cook.


Its Fried Chicken Nuggets and Scrambled Eggs!! Mmm...i just love scrambled eggs! ahahaha...pretty plain, yeah but at least i'm loving it!!! Oh, and i forgot take snap my glass of orange juice too! wahahha....

Love,
JL

a little update

Life has been so-so for me. Lately i've been feeling restless and tired for most of the time. Not sure if posing a self imprisonment at home is taking a toll on me. I just somehow sometimes feel like not talking to anyone at all. I'm feeling tired but i couldn't sleep. I feel like the world's on my fragile body. Oh Lord, i need You now more than ever....

Just today i receive a package from a dear friend of mine. All the way from JB! I was having dinner with my family when she called saying she delivered her 2007 Oops Asia! Sdn Bhd studio cut CD, I trust in You, for me. I was surprised at the same time happy that the timing couldn't be any better! Thank YOU, Gabz! Just when i'm losing focus, your package seems like a boost to me! Hopefully one day i'll be able to do the same too! I had to say my favourite tracks were You Think You Got It All, For Me To Live Is Christ To Die Is Gain and How Could This Be? Prelude (unplugged version). I still love the others but these 3 stood out the best! I didn't know Jamie Wilson played for Gospels too! God bless him!!!

Talking about Jamie Wilson, he is my favourite for any local musicians. Hmm...not to say that being a gaijin is not a Malaysian but he is the best!! His repertoire includes studio and on-stage performance for artists like Amei (KYAAAA!!!!!) and so many others makes one green and purple with envy. I missed his personal performance in KL i think 2 years back but i read the review was awesome! Just him and his guitar...what a night it must've been! Oh, i haven't heard the AkashA! stuffs too! This guy can just play practically anything you throw at him and still smile at you! If i'm ever gonna cut my own album, ima gonna totally soooo get him!!! The first time i saw him playing live was at Amei's (KYAAAAA!!!!!) 2009 Born To Sing! Malaysia Concert. He totally blew me away!!! Mr. Wilson, if you are EVER gonna read this....You're AWESOME!!!!! You so inspire me to keep playing!! Really hope to meet you someday!!

Ahak! Blogging really does helps a lot. No matter you're feeling up in the air or down the gutter, you feel a lot better after that! So, i'm gonna leave you guys hanging till the next post then! Ciao!

Love,
JL

WiWi's new shoes

Let's see...the day before yesterday, my sis was driving back from her Japanese tuition quite late and was kinda "speedy" to get home. But some lamers left a brick in the middle of the road out of nowhere! And thinking that it was a cookie box, decided to just run over it instead of swerving ...until it was too late. The impact of running a car at 80km/h over a effing brick bent the front left rims. I think she came home quite worried that i was gonna murder her but it wasn't her fault so i just let it slide.

Yesterday, we woke up kinda early to go look for a tyre shop to see if they can still save the poor thing but was told that the rim had to be reworked. And i thought, might as well get a new set of rim. And so off we go!! Hugo told me that there was a shop in Batu Gajah that was doing promotions and that i should head on there to have a look. My Lord! i've never seen a tyre shop with so much rims on display!!! It was like a sports rim haven! But i'm sure all you city people have seen more but not this Ipoh boy! wahahaha!!

Well, the funny thing is..i wanted a rim with a deep offset but my sister just came in, took a quick look, pointed at one set of rim and said, "That one".

She turned and went back outside to sit in a corner and continue her hand phone game. Talk about being point of authority!!! Yeah, so i went ahead with her choice and after an hour or two, WiWi's got a new shoe!!!! hmm...Sue Ann's birthday but WiWi's got the present?? LOL!!

To be honest, i have been looking around for a new set of rims for quite sometime now and now that we got that off the list, i shall be looking for some nice suspension setups. Why? Cos i'm planning on how to mod WiWi into a lorry......any ideas, anyone??? LOL!!

Proud rim owner,
JL

Yatta!! New headphones!

Yay!! Today was the last day of PC Fair '09 in Ipoh! My sister and I went to get some stuffs. And guess what i got? No points for guessing tho! LOL!!!

The crowd was ok by standard cos we were there around 4pm. The dreaded time would be by 7pm till closing cos that is the time where the sellers go crazy by selling it REAL cheap! And we saw one selling surgical masks by the entrance! I bet they made a lot of money! I mean, they are selling Rm1/piece!

We got ourselves a car MP3 player thingy that you stick in your car ciggie lighter. We bought one sometime ago and it just burned our money away! It was already faulty by the time we parked the car in the parking lot! So, this time we decided to play save by asking which one is the best seller and why. When we asked the staffs, they only rolled their eyes and said that because it was cheap! LOL!!! So instinctively we bought the other one. More to pay but at least it was working!! Now we get to save a lot CDRs!!! LOL!!!

Next up, we got ourselves a new headset since the old one was already hitting its useful limit. Not to mention that Kazuki almost bit the cable into two! LOL!! Its a SonicGear HP600. Not exactly one would use for recording. I'd go for higher ends if i realyl wanted to use it for recording. After being pushed around and jammed inside the basketball court for like 30mins, i couldn't take it anymore. I told my sister to quickly get her stuff since i already knew which headphone i wanted to get. I was marinated in my own sweat!! urgh~~~

The SonicGear HP600



The left side closeup of the headphone. Notice the outer "speaker"?

My stupid face...

So, with this headphone, i hope to be able to stand longer hours when i'm doing some demos at home cos the old one would threathen to cram my ears into multi parts after like 2 hours! Next on my list, a condenser mic!!!! Well....if this headphone is to the job! Anyway, i just wanted to blog about something i i thought of this. LOL!!!!

Emancipation of Boredom,
JL

Should i stay or should i go??

Dear bloggy (kinda like diary..only its a blog!!! LOL!!),

Recently i received 2 really unexpected calls from ex coworkers. And what a surprise it was! Both was also extending their help to get me work! ehheheheh~~talk about timing! But I'm considering real hard...On one hand, is money. The other, my project and my kid. Not to mention those guys at Crescendo Music. Arghh~~!!! Decisions, decisions, decisions and oh, have i mention decisions??!!!

Why so hard, i hear ya ask? Well, simply because its a KL job! I am not a real fan of KL's hustle and bustle kinda life. Yeah. I'm just a plain lazy couch bum in a comfort zone a home-type! LOL!! Oka-san says that if my heart is with the project then i should hold ground here and get a local job in the meanwhile. Well, at least i can still keep developing it! What you guys think? Leave me a comment and let me know!

Other than that, nothing much interesting is happening. Its hard to think straight when one is listening to AnCafe! wahahaha~~Take care now!

boredom maximus!
JL

Nyappy!!!! o(≧∀≦)o

Lately, I've been feeling pretty good and satisfied about myself. Everything that happens to me now seems to have a specific purpose. I've been hearing a lot of motivating encouragements from my night job's customers about our performances and to be honest, i think i improved quite a lot vocally. I feel like I'm more stable now. Not till that "safe point" yet but i think i can still handle quite well. Thanks to Gabz!! The basic techniques you taught me is really showing its effects! I think i am ready for Lesson Two!! Not forgetting also Crescendo Music crew members for tolerating me for so long! Thanks to you guys too!!! LOL!!! God is awesomeness~!*Nyappy!!

Speaking of which, i am listening to a lot of older Antic Cafe's stuffs (when Bou was still in the band). Its really strange. I just happened to receive a Youtube message from someone who wanted a video i uploaded to be sent to him/her and i happened to find that this someone is a fan (?) of Antic Cafe. Then i think i remembered seeing this name on the Oricon charts with Hikki- chan sometime back.

So i decided to check this band out. The first video i saw was Merrymaking and there was this "blond" acting all kawaii and stuff. But to my disbelief, the "blond" is a HE!!!!( Check out the videos below and tell me you didn't make the same mistake!) Damn all this Oshare Kei is confusing me!!! Oshare Kei is a sub of Visual Kei and unlike Visual, the songs are more fun songs. And mostly talks about friends and relationships. Also, they tend to crossdress as girls sometimes...well, most of the time! ROFL!!! I think of all Oshare Kei bands, Bou is best misunderstood for being a chick/tranny/gay. But no, i don't think he is. Not according to the Cafekkos anyway!

The first AnCafe PV i saw

My current fav PV of AnCafe!

This is what they mean by fun, dance rock!

LOL!! Somehow, this band was able to capture my attention. I think its the music they play. Its not emo! Its not too heavy and technical. Just the way i would do it if i were in the band. LOL!!! Plus, its fun music! According to Teruki, the band leader, the characteristic of the band is Dance Rock..i think its a rock music that makes people wanna just dance! Just to clear the air, Oshare and Visual Kei is NOT EMO! Get the facts right, people!

But too bad, Bou had to leave the band due to some unknown reasons. I have to give a benefit of a doubt to the 2 new members of the band but i think Bou was the colour of the band. No offence to anyone but i think with Bou around, the band was more colourful. But i will be fair to the new AnCafe too....maybe not now. LOL~~

Sigh~~watching all these vids makes me wonder if i could be part of that Oshare/Visual Kei culture too.....

P/S: "Nyappy" is a word AnCafe created. Don't ask.


Nyappy!
JL