Indecision

“Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.”- Romans 8:35-37

For the past 2 weeks, i've been thinking long and hard. Literally losing a lot of sleep over it. Should i really go this time? This is how it all started.....

Just last week, i was having a great teh tarik time with me best mate, Timmy. Somehow i can't remember how we came to the topic of music, bands and joonhui. And this is what Phatboy said, "Mate, JH and i are looking forward to you playing bass with us. Come to KL. We'll figure something out. Since you've been lamenting how you are at the end of the road now."

Since that day, i've been really thinking about a change of environment. A change of my daily life. Don't get me wrong but i still love what i'm doing now. I seriously love the Crescendo Music Crew! I'm living my dream. Playing music for a living. That's what i always dreamed about. But when you, yourself who has been giving a lot of people asking you to go somewhere else for a change for the past i-don't-know-how-long the same and only reason, feeling jaded...you know it is time to move on.

I need to find myself a new set of wheels before moving down and that itself is an obstacle. Then i need to find a place to rent. And not to mention, getting a job.

Timmy has been a real mate by offering me to teach beginner guitar but that of course would mean i'm taking a 20%++ paycut from what i'm having now. But at least that is the only music related job that i'm qualified to do....i think. I'm still thinking if i should get an ordinary office job that is paying much much more (but by KL's standard...still not sufficient!)

Maybe JH's right. This is a really big leap of faith for me. Just like a fish out of its tank into another. What then, is faith? When you fervently believe in something that can't be seen, felt, touched, taste or heard. Am i prepared, mentally, physically and spiritually, for this?

I'm feeling so scared now. So afraid to move out of my comfort zone. I'm afraid that i would unwittingly sacrificed my sister's ambitions. I'm afraid that instead of gaining confidence and financially, i'm being battered by it. I'm afraid of being away from Sue Ann. Most of all...i'm afraid of failing.

JH, you're right. It pains everyone to say but Ann is really not dependent on me..in some ways. I know what i want. Confirmations and blessings. I'm not getting any younger by the minute. I can't afford to "try out" a different scenario. I don't have the luxury to test and try. I have absolutely no room to fail! The cost is too high for me.

Maybe there IS one way to solve this.

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
-Psalm 23:4

Just a few hours away from 2010's Chinese New Year and..(drum roll please!)...it still feels like any other day! Crikey! >.< !!!

No loud and annoying firecrackers, no anticipation more waking up wishing the time would go faster, etc. I guess its just me grown up.

I am not much of a gambler either so i guess you won't see me much in a group of people sitting circles on the floor yelling, "PICTURE! PICTURE! PICTURE KA-BOOM!!!" and putting all my angpow money trying double it or blow it all.I still remember those younger days when all of us would sit down in the living room and would just gamble the night away. It is not the money that matters but it was the bantering, the chatting and advices on how to win the game from my uncles and aunties was rewarding. Like feeling all grown up and be a part of "them". Silly me...LOL!!

Enough with the negativity, damnit! Its a New Year!!! LOL!! Anyway, I would like to take this time and opportunity to wish everyone a "虎年进步， 身体健康 ， 虎虎生威!!" and a HAPPY CHINESE NEW TIGER YEAR!!!

RaaAAoOOooUuuUU!!!

The wonders of nail polish remover!!!

Just this morning i was slowly and painstakingly scraping the remnants of past road-tax stickers off my windscreen. And what pain it is! I really hate scraping them off fearing that if i scratch it too hard will leave mark on my cheap and utterly useless window tint.

Then, my mom came to me and said, "Ah boy...why not use nail polish remover?". And she went to get the nail polish remover and some cottons. I was skeptical at first thinking, "Nail polish remover? Pfft..". Man, was i wrong!
With just a dab of the polish remover onto the cotton and i managed to literally wipe of the sticky remnants almost effortlessly!!! And now, the windscreen on WiWi now looks much much much more tidy without the reminders of where the past road-tax stickers used to be.

And for this current sticker, my sister asked me to go buy the road-tax sticker..sticker to avoid repeating the same after use trails like the previous ones. But before i bought anything, somehow the clogs in her head started spinning and used the plastic looking food wrapper and just paste it on the windscreen with the road-tax in it. Genius!! (^.^) b

The simple and inconspicuous looking nail polish remover has saved up a lot of my time! Hell, it can remove colours on your nails, why not some sticker remnants?! LOL!!! So, i've come to a new Josh Lui Top Tip of the Week; Nail Polish Remover: the WD40 of the beauty world!

Love,
JL

Post-bday!

I didn't have much of a party going on. Just dinner with my family and chilling out with me best mates! Thanks to Timmy for coming back all the way from KL (altho' i doubt the "coincidence"...) to hang out with me! Its a fun conversation we had at the mamak! And Sandy and Bell for coming out to Station 1. Altho' i get to see you guys a bit, but it's always nice to see familiar faces (thanks for being the eye candy...can't take much from looking at Timmy too much...=.="). LOL!!!!

This, ladies and gentlemen, is my birthday gift from my sister! I'm loving it so much! To be honest, i think this is the first 50ml perfume i ever have in my entire 29 years (damnit..i said it again!) of life. The rest i had are just miniatures (which i love) or those which i happened to "accidentally took" from my sister's room...in my sleep!

But anyway, i always love the gifts that i get from her. She just knew what i want or what i needed. Whoever (Mr. Moriyama, perhaps??) gonna marry her will always be in for surprises! She's a gifted gifter! LOL!!!!

I dun think i'll be using another perfume for quite sometime....I HEART BURBERRY!!! >.< !!! Now i can scratch off No. 43549, TO HAVE A BOTTLE OF PERFUME, off my LIST OF THINGS TO HAVE/DO BEFORE I DIE OF OLD AGE....LOL!!!

Now...i need to secretly plan to have the iPhone..........

P/S: No, i don't have the need to cover manly scent with this...really.

Happy,
JL

29 years ago...

Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to me,
Happy birthday to me who was born 29 years agoooooooo,
Happy birthday to meeee!!!

Happy birthhhhhhdayyy~~happy birthhhhhdayyyy~~~and happy birthdayyy toooooo meeeee~~~!!!!

Thank you, Jesus for providing me my breath until today. To my mom and dad, who "made" me...literally. LOL! My sister, who put up with a lot of my craps! To CM Crew, its always a blessing to be able to play with you all!!! And also to those who expressed their wishes to me via phone calls (yes, timmy..you're the first!), smses, Facebook, MSN and whatever the medium may be...

THANK KIA!!!!!!!! >.< !!!

Love,
JL

another day, another life

These few days i haven't been getting a lot of sleep. I get probably about 4 hours average of sleep per night....make that per 24 hours! Maybe once in every 3-4 days, i'd get adequate sleep. Not sure why. Now that i'm performing a 4-5 nights weekly, i really get to see where i am vocally and musically. Damn. It doesn't look good! Guess i'll have to shift up to the next gear!

I've been listening a lot to 2v1g for the past week and i am hooked! So looking forward to their sophomore album with a new voice. And i just found out that Jacky Cheung's new album was a jazz album! WTG, Jacky! Oh, and the song 十二个音 was written locally by Roger Wang!!! Double WTG!!!!

CNY is just 10 more days to go. And i've yet to prepare anything for it. More like, i'm too lazy to prepare for it..like any other year. Anyway, i'm thinking of getting myself something for this CNY. Still contemplating whether i should get a new guitar or an iPhone...or a cruiser bike...or a turbocharged car...sigh. And no reason i could think of why i should get myself something. I don't think i deserve anything this year.

And on that, i wanna wish you all a happy CNY and have a safe but fun holidays!!!

PS: drink responsibly!

Love,
JL